Thursday, April 25, 2013


Stepped on the scale this morning and... WHAT?!?... Saw the same number I saw on January 1. Oh my goodness. How does that even happen when you are food conscientious? And I'm pretty sure it's not muscle so please refrain from that comment. Wow. Anyway, NOT looking forward to my weigh in in six days. Pretty sure I'll be reporting a gain.

So how do you deal with discouragement? What do you tell yourself to keep going when it feels like almost four months of work just went down the drain?

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Living with your decisions, and other people's choices

There are decisions we make that can be changed and there are decisions that can't. Correction, we can remake decisions, we can't change the way we chose in the past.

So yes, I have chosen to live a more gluttonous, low activity life in the past. That doesn't have to be my choice in the future. I can change.

But sometimes I have a hard time accepting the choices that have already been made. I beat myself up pretty good.

I struggle with others' decisions sometimes too. Now that is ridiculous! If I expect to be able to live my life the way I want, so can others. I shouldn't judge others by the template I use to judge myself. Anyway, I'm rambling a bit.

I guess the basis of this post isn't just about the way I feel about my body. It is my emotional health and a confession: sometimes I don't like other people.

Monday, April 22, 2013

I exercised, did you?

Fruits of your labor

So my child LOVES The Lorax. I hear this song at least weekly.
"You can't reap what you don't sow." 
If you don't get moving and you don't work at it, 
you'll NEVER lose those extra pounds.

Also, Happy Earth Day!

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Bad Days

I have been absolutely terrible this weekend. You know those days where you tell yourself, "I deserve this treat," over and over again? Well, those treats add up.

A month or so ago, I read an article on CNN about a woman who lost a lot of weight. She was quoted saying, "If you have a bad day, don't make it a bad week." I really loved this quote. It is written on our fridge as a constant reminder.

Needless to say, today and yesterday have been "bad days." I really don't want to make it a bad weekend. Feeling a lack of self control. It is like once I decided to step it up by blogging for the world, my will power fell off the face of the planet. I hope you have been stronger than me!

But here's to tomorrow. It is a new day!

Thursday, April 18, 2013

The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like and do what you'd druther not.
Mark Twain

Sometimes it really does feel this way...

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Put all excuses aside and remember this: YOU are capable.
Zig Ziglar

Why a Blog?

The other day I was feeling down. Why am I not losing weight faster? Why have I doomed myself to forever be fat? Why is it so hard to be good with what I eat? Why? Why? Why?

And I had an epiphany. I needed to open myself up and write about what I'm feeling and what I'm doing to feel better. I know there are others out there that struggle. And we need to come together.

Last year, I did a happy thoughts blog where I posted a quote about happiness every day. By the end of the year, I didn't feel much happier. I took some time to think about what I thought would make me happier. High on the list, being skinny. While this sounds completely shallow, and I know I should be happy with myself the way I am, I am pretty sure being healthier and thinner will add to my happiness. So this year has been focused on that.

I know, I know. It is April 17th. Where have I been the last three and a half months? I've been gaining the courage to talk about something that is so personal. I don't believe in sharing my private life in the public sector. But I'm hoping this is just the kick in the pants that I need. If I'm accountable here, maybe I'll be successful.
Note: I have not gained the courage to share actual numbers or pictures yet. 
I'm hoping that will come because I know I will feel even more accountable.

Here's to new beginnings and getting skinny!