And I had an epiphany. I needed to open myself up and write about what I'm feeling and what I'm doing to feel better. I know there are others out there that struggle. And we need to come together.
Last year, I did a happy thoughts blog where I posted a quote about happiness every day. By the end of the year, I didn't feel much happier. I took some time to think about what I thought would make me happier. High on the list, being skinny. While this sounds completely shallow, and I know I should be happy with myself the way I am, I am pretty sure being healthier and thinner will add to my happiness. So this year has been focused on that.
I know, I know. It is April 17th. Where have I been the last three and a half months? I've been gaining the courage to talk about something that is so personal. I don't believe in sharing my private life in the public sector. But I'm hoping this is just the kick in the pants that I need. If I'm accountable here, maybe I'll be successful.
Note: I have not gained the courage to share actual numbers or pictures yet.
I'm hoping that will come because I know I will feel even more accountable.
Here's to new beginnings and getting skinny!
I feel your pain. Losing weight is so difficult and frustrating. Most frustrating is how quickly weight latches to my body, but how unwilling it is later to let go when I'm tired of it. Exercise alone isn't enough. Food deprivation is not enough. My fatty mass requires it all, in unison. Sweat, achy muscles, tasteless foods, and starvation are all required to but begin the slow drizzle of fat from my waist line. Yet without fail, my self control and motivation prove weaker than my resolve in and patience with the arduous weight loss process. The weight returns and the agony button resets. Losing weight is not fun because without fail it won't stay lost. It keeps finding me.
ReplyDeleteI am here to listen and empathize. I appreciate your willingness to share and help others.
My hope is I can begin where I am now, accept and do what I am able, acknowledge where I need help, and find the true source of strength to make improvements each day.